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ok, well i feel alot better today, and i didnt get to try to drown every thing out, idk i'll try it sometime. well, idk why i get like that. just sometimes i feel depressed and stuff and want to just crawl under a rock. well im good today but not exactly HAPPY AND CHEERFULL and im still a little tired, considering that its almost eleven...

OH MY FUCKEN GOD IM SUCH A SKREW UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i wanna just go die,

i wonder if its possible to litteraly drown out every thing if you put your music loud enough and just sit there with your eyes closed, and every thing just goes away, or appears to go away

idk im kinda depressed inside, and i get sad alot really easily cuz well im really emotional, and i somewhat cut myself, and i hide it from my boyfriend...i want to tell him but i dont want him to wory and im also afraid that he'll get mad at me, and well ive never seen him mad, and im afraid to see him mad so i dont want to tell him because i dont want him to get mad at me, and he worrys that im gunna get hurt and when i am hurt he gets scared but if i tell him that i hurt myself intentionaly then well he'l get scared and pissed. then since im scared of people when there mad, i'd get scared and who knows what would happen next...

i feel like i want to die right now